Jul 02 2007

The Leaving Song Pt. 2

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The Leaving Song Pt. 2
A.f.i.
you wont feel anything

or were you sent to save me?

I ve thought too much

you wont find anything

worthy of redeeming

Yo he estado aqui muchas veces antes y regreso

To…BREAK DOWN

and cease all feeling

BURN NOW

what once was breathing

REACH OUT

and you may take my heart away

imperfect cry

and scream in ecstacy

so what befalls the flawless

look what I ve built

it shines so beautifully

now watch as it destroys me

Y regreso aqui otra vez y comensado

To…BREAK DOWN

and cease all feeling

BURN NOW

what once was breathing

REACH OUT

and you may take my heart away

[x2

I left it all behindand never said goodbye[x3

I left it all to die

I saw its birth

i watched it grow

i felt it change me

i took the life

i ate it slow

now it consumes me

BREAK DOWN

and cease all feeling

BURN NOW

what once was breathing

REACH OUT

and you may take my heart away

Heart away


Jul 02 2007

The Last Kiss

Tag: A.F.I.admin @ 2:29 pm

The Last Kiss
A.f.i.
All by myselfi m alone in such poor company.

The deeper i thinkthe deeper i seem to sink

I can t stop the insects that are feeding

Pull the needles from beneath my skin.

I broke myselfshatteredtied a bow around every piece.

You ll lovely the eyes.

Have they always shown so vacantly?

The more i show the less you ll want to know.

I can t stop the insects that are feeding

Pull the needles from beneath my skin.

Now i m on display.

I am becoming.

Hurt myself today.

It s all for you.

Do you likedo you likewhat i m becoming?

Cut myself today.

It s all for you.

I part the nightflashingapproaching as i watch you flee.

Pushed through your panes.

Seems i ve landed quite uncomfortably.

But as i pass through souls of broken glass

I can t stop the insects that are feeding.

Pull the needles from beneath my skin.

Please don t ask me just what i thinktrust me

You don t want to know.

Please don t ask me to open uptrust metrust me

cause i can t.


Jul 02 2007

The Great Disappointment

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The Great Disappointment
A.f.i.
Chrysanthemums of white

They seemed so beautiful.

I can remember I searched for the amaranth.

I d shut my eyes eyes to see.

Ohhow I smiled thenso near the cherished ones.

I knew they would appear…saw not a single one.

Ohhow I smiled thenwaiting so patiently.

I d make a wish and bleed.

While I waited

I was wasting away.

While I waited

I was wasted away.

I can remember… dreamt them so vividly.

Soft creatures draped in white

light kisses gracing me.

I can remember when I first realized

dreams were the only place to see them.

While I waited

I was wasting away.

Hope was wasting away.

Faith was wasting away.

I was wasting away.

I nevernever wanted this.

I always wanted to believe

but from the start I d been deceived.

I nevernever wanted this.

Inside a crumbling effigy

so dies all innocence.

But you promised me.


Jul 02 2007

The Days Of The Phoenix

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The Days Of The Phoenix
A.f.i.
Candle waxand dried up flowers

The figure on the bed all dressed up in rosescalling

Beckoning to sleep

Offering a dream

Words were as mystical as purring animals

The circle of rage

The ghosts on the stage appeared

The time was so tangiblei ll never let it go

Ghost stories handed downreached secret tunnels below

No one could see me

I fell into yesterday

Our dreams seemed not far away

I want toi want toi want to stay

I fell into fantasy

The words were as mystical as purring animals

The circle of rage

The ghosts on the stage appeared

The time was so tangiblei ll never let it go

Ghost stories handed downreached secret tunnels below

No one could see me

I fell into yesterday.

Our dreams seemed not far away

I want toi want toi want to stay.

I fell into fantasy

The girl on the wall always waited for me

And she was always smiling

The teenage death boys

The teenage death girls

And everyone was dancing

Nothing could touch us then

No one could change us then

Everyone was dancing

Nothing could hurt us then

No one could see us then

Everyone was dancing

Everyone was dancing

No one could see me

I fell into yesterday

Our dreams seemed not far away

I want toi want toi want to stay

I fell into fantasy

Our dreams seemed not far away

Our dreams seemed not far away

Our dreams seemed not far away

I fell into fantasy


Jul 02 2007

The Boy Who Destroyed The World

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The Boy Who Destroyed The World
A.f.i.
One day through the rain i heard him meekly moanhe said

“will you wrap your arms around me as i m falling?”

Remember when we were all so beautiful? but since then we ve lost our glow.

They said it hurt their eyes but he would never know that they were filled with regret as their own dissipated.

He said”i now feel more desperately aloneeven though they wrapped their arms around me as i d fallen.”

They said it hurt their eyesbut he would never know that they were claiming regret as their own…

As their own dissipated.


Jul 01 2007

Take The Test

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Take The Test
A.f.i.
And you realize the path that you will travel through your life

Be sure that what you want is exactly what you re trying to get

Or you ll be speeding toward a cliff without realizing that…

Before you know

The haze makes you slow ignore your future

Forget your past - before you know

Cars start to crash.

There are so many choices

The opportunities abound.

Just to be sure to keep things straight and be sure to stand your ground.

Let nothing shade your vision

Even fight to keep it clear.

Let no one change what s right for you

For when you start to veer cars start to crash.


Jul 01 2007

Strength Through Wounding

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Strength Through Wounding
A.f.i.
We are one!

Through the darkness breaks the light.

Through the light unending pain.

Deify the wretched ones till the darkness comes again.


Jul 01 2007

Spoken Poem at the End of …But Home is nowhere

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Spoken Poem at the End of …But Home is nowhere
A.f.i.
The sky had come crashing down like the news of an intimate suicide. We picked up the shards and formed them into shapes of stars that wore like an antique wedding dress.The echoes of the past broke the hearts of the unborn as the ferris wheel silently slowed to a stop. The few insects skittered away in hopes of a better pastime. I kissed you at the apex of the maelstrom and asked if you would accompany in a quick fallbut you made me realize that my ticket wasn t good for two. I rode alone.

You saidThe cinders are falling like snow.There is poetry in despairand we sang with unrivaled beautybitter elegies of savagery and eloquence. Of blue and grey. Strangewe ran down desparate streets and carved our names in the flesh of the city. The sun has stagnated somewhere beyond the rim of the horizon and the darkness is a mystery of curves and lines. Stillwe lay under the emptiness and drifted slowly outwardand somewhere in the wilderness we found salvation scratched into the earth like a message.


Jul 01 2007

Soap Box Derby

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Soap Box Derby
A.f.i.
I m just amused at your quest for attention

Through your self abuse.

The only response that you get for your pleasis sorely

Less than sympathy.

What reason is there to be alive?

When the word is against you how can you survive?

All your friends are apathetic at best

And your entire life is a total mess.

Give it a fuckin rest.

You can tyou can t feel mefeel

I m scarred so deep.

No one could ever need me.

Could you please leave me alone?

I m sorry to hear that your world s sinking fast

And you ve lost your stable ground

And i m sorry to add to your disappointment

But i won t be brought down.

I m not angry

I m just amused at all the dramatics you love to use

But one thing i have noticed that is strange to me is

That you re not content until you re brought down

And you re always so alone because you can t be found.

You re soul is black and you re filled with hate.

How much more can you possible take?

Give me a fuckin break.


Jul 01 2007

Shatty Fatmas

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Shatty Fatmas
A.f.i.
I won t believe a single word.

Don t care to hear what you say.

I won t believe it anyway.

You relay fiction

Facts you avoid.

You re just like a fucking tabloid

You can never seem to get your information straight.

Tell me something i don t know.

Your information s fucking faux.

Don t you have somewhere to go?

Your mouth is quick

Your mind is slow.

Don t want to know what you know.

I just want you to fucking go.

Don t want to know what you believe.

I just wish that you would leave.

You try to cajz everyday

I wish that you would get away.

You can never seem to get your information straight.

When you try to hang around

I d really like to push you down.

When you try to understand

I don t really think that you can.


Jul 01 2007

Porphyria Cutanea Tarda

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Porphyria Cutanea Tarda
A.f.i.
For where else could we go?

To great disbelief there is somewhere we belong.

In negative space supposed flaws go unseen

But our strength is shown.

In darkness together we re bringing the light.

In darkness together we are forming.

The fire tomorrow is born of the night

In darkness together we ignite.

From all we ve been shunned but we found a new home.

To great discontent it is greatness that we own.

In luminous eyesreflections of fear absolute…

All hate what we ve become.

In darkness together we re bringing the light.

In darkness together we are forming.

The fire tomorrow is born of the night

In darkness together we ignite.

Through our will we bring fear.

Left to burn beneath the sun.

We are one.

When daylight forms blinding walls where do we go?

Days arid are scorching all.

When daylight forms blindingbinding walls where do we go?

The darkness calls.


Jul 01 2007

Perfect Fit

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Perfect Fit
A.f.i.
Or was i even thinking at all?

When i think of what i thought back then

Then i m ashamed;

And i m appalled that i gave up all i was so easily.

Living your life is not for me.

I won t be sedated

I won t be sedated!

Give me a little taste and i know i won t want more.

I won t be sedatedstability is overrated.

Give me the disorder i adore.

I can t be a partbe a part

I can t be a part.

I can t be a part

Be a part of your modern world.

I ve gotta be apartbe apart

I ve gotta be apart.

I ve gotta be apart.

I can t grasp the values that you hold.

What was it you were thinking

Or were you even thinking at all?

When i think of what you thought of me

I take offense;

And i m appalled that you could discount all i love so easily.

Living our life is not for me.


Jul 01 2007

Paper Airplanes Makeshift Wings

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Paper Airplanes Makeshift Wings
A.f.i.
As they fallI am ever enthralled

Gazelie and smirk in time.

Your arrogance will suit you well

til fashion is dispelled.

As waves of plastic fame go out of fashion

you re going out going out forever unknown

these waves of plastic fame go out of fashion

you re going out going out forever unknown

From above a rain of ashes descends.

Anathema I will remain forever will remain

From belowin my seclusion

look up to the sky to see paper wings and watch them burn.

Without habitation.

You ll never find a soul insideno lifebut nothing s died.

No lightsbut quite the show

just as long as no one ever knows all motion is pantomime.

Dancing in the rain of descending ash. dancing on your grave.

I ll see you all falling.

Dancing in the rain of descending ash

Dancing in your dust

I ll see you all falling.

I d stop ithad you a heart.


Jul 01 2007

No Poetic Device

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No Poetic Device
A.f.i.
I was lucid.

Blood was seeping from my pores.

Who d believe that it was all my own decision?

Cracked faces and medicated smiles.

Set fire to my home before i turned and walked back in.

For even needle open my chest and insert ten pins.

I just anticipate what awaits when i awake… break.

I die in my daydreams.

The gardens have all been overgrown.

I pushed my hand through the thorns to crush the final rose.

A deadly secret only i suffer to know.

I can t eradicate what awaits when i awake… break.

I die in my day dreams.


Jun 30 2007

Fishbowl

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Fishbowl
A.f.i.
Just like every yesterday.

Heavy heat

And sheets stick to my skin.

Can t get away from nothingness.

I try to get up

But i have to give in to the force that is keeping me down.

I overcome gravity

I look outside.

A cat cries out

Trapped upon a window sill

But is crying s drowned out by my screaming inside.

What will it take?

I wonder what it s like exposed outside

Would i be safe?

When will it break.

Try to look out

I see reflection i just want to break.

Sirens moan.

They re forever crying…someone s probably dying.

The sound sticks inside my head.

Talk to myself

I m company

But who is to say if nothing if said?

Two windows stare back at me.

Three stories high nothing is new.

I may sit

But someday i ll stand.

I ll muster up the will and fire myself through.


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